No. But I consider it a valid question: I had no intention of acting on that info until I gathered more pieces, so why would I have gone around telling others about it prematurely?
Because for something that big, I would have told you immediately. But you didn’t tell me, and Lea didn’t tell me, so I had to hear it from fucking North, who immediately told me to get a grip!
I don't see how I'm responsible for North's behaviour towards you.
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Where you may feel like the other shoe was dropped on you, it was never "news" to me. I suspected from the start that this was our intended fate, so to have it confirmed was merely disappointing, rather than shocking. For me, it has changed nothing but the way others are reacting.
[he shakes his head.]
In any case, what is it you want from me, Emma? Or are you just here to yell at me?
Well, that's wonderful for you, isn't it. You know, you could at least pretend to care. I thought you were... [...] Fuck it. Apparently I was wrong, whatever.
[She runs a hand through her hair, blinking a few times.]
...I would have thought you'd at least care that I was upset, if that were the case.
[She tilts her head.]
We only brought you up because you have the item that protects you from being corrupted. But... You can give that to anyone. I'm just saying - I wouldn't blame you if you didn't want it to be you.
No, that's not what I'm saying. It's not that I think you'd be a bad choice, just... I don't want you to feel like it has to be you, or that we're pushing you into it.
[... well, he feels that it's a bit unfair, that he's to let emma yell at him as she likes but not be given the chance to do anything about it, other than apparently pretend to be someone she'd rather have.
but there's no point in expressing that.]
I don't particularly intend to die, although I'd rather not have Milla die for my sake either.
Her or Ookurikara, most likely—as much as the latter option might surprise some.
But they're two of the most sincere people here, and they've demonstrated that they will put their duty above their personal feelings. [...] Well, though it depends exactly on what's meant by the final survivor getting to decide the fate of everything.
Yes. I understand why you don't think he should, but I've had quite a few conversations on what motivates him and what should be the ultimate outcome of things. He's not just some angry, vengeful element to watch out for.
The kind of person where, if someone he loved or he himself was corrupted, he would out them immediately. He cannot fathom why anyone would do otherwise—why anyone would let personal biases put everyone else at risk.
Similarly, his rationale for wanting Shirasu dead was that, even if it caused an additional casualty that week, the damage Shirasu could cause by going free would be far worse. You may agree or disagree with that, but it wasn't out of blind justice.
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He's a difficult person, and exasperating to converse with. But his stubbornness always boils down to the fact that, again, he can't comprehend why anyone in our situation wouldn't prioritize the greater good or bigger picture above all else.
...I know I'm not in the running, as far as the whole last person standing thing goes.
[Nor does she think she should be, or particularly want to be.]
But if we can't figure out another way to end this whole thing, when it comes down to the whole - taking out the spares part. [...] I don't want it to be someone I don't know.
[It's probably clear enough where she's going with this, from the way she doesn't meet his eyes.]
I wouldn't feel nothing over killing a friend. [that's what the discomfort is for.] But if it's what you want, then I'm willing, and I agree that it'd be better than at the hands of a stranger.
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[...]
Where you may feel like the other shoe was dropped on you, it was never "news" to me. I suspected from the start that this was our intended fate, so to have it confirmed was merely disappointing, rather than shocking. For me, it has changed nothing but the way others are reacting.
[he shakes his head.]
In any case, what is it you want from me, Emma? Or are you just here to yell at me?
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[She runs a hand through her hair, blinking a few times.]
No. There was something else I wanted to ask you.
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[shess has never pretended to be anything other than who he is, so truthfully, he doesn't see how emma would consider this unexpected from him.]
What is it?
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You said Milla and Lea wanted it to be you. What do you want?
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[he tilts his head, mildly surprised.]
Why do you ask?
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[She tilts her head.]
We only brought you up because you have the item that protects you from being corrupted. But... You can give that to anyone. I'm just saying - I wouldn't blame you if you didn't want it to be you.
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Is there someone else you'd rather it be?
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No, that's not what I'm saying. It's not that I think you'd be a bad choice, just... I don't want you to feel like it has to be you, or that we're pushing you into it.
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but there's no point in expressing that.]
I don't particularly intend to die, although I'd rather not have Milla die for my sake either.
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[But.]
She’d be your choice if it wasn’t you?
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But they're two of the most sincere people here, and they've demonstrated that they will put their duty above their personal feelings. [...] Well, though it depends exactly on what's meant by the final survivor getting to decide the fate of everything.
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The kind of person where, if someone he loved or he himself was corrupted, he would out them immediately. He cannot fathom why anyone would do otherwise—why anyone would let personal biases put everyone else at risk.
Similarly, his rationale for wanting Shirasu dead was that, even if it caused an additional casualty that week, the damage Shirasu could cause by going free would be far worse. You may agree or disagree with that, but it wasn't out of blind justice.
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He's a difficult person, and exasperating to converse with. But his stubbornness always boils down to the fact that, again, he can't comprehend why anyone in our situation wouldn't prioritize the greater good or bigger picture above all else.
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[She doesn't sound like she entirely agrees, but she does at least sound like she's thinking it over.]
There's something else I wanted to ask you. It's kind of a weird request, and you can say no if you want, but...
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[Nor does she think she should be, or particularly want to be.]
But if we can't figure out another way to end this whole thing, when it comes down to the whole - taking out the spares part. [...] I don't want it to be someone I don't know.
[It's probably clear enough where she's going with this, from the way she doesn't meet his eyes.]
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well, that's... there's certainly some discomfort in shess's voice as he answers. it wasn't what he was expecting.]
... All right. I understand. If that's what you'd prefer.
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—No, it's fine. Don't worry about it.
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I wouldn't feel nothing over killing a friend. [that's what the discomfort is for.] But if it's what you want, then I'm willing, and I agree that it'd be better than at the hands of a stranger.
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